Monday, August 16, 2010

raya oh raya

it's been 6 year i'm celebrating raya at peningsular malaysia......... when should be my turn ... i wanna feel the raya mood at kk... wanna break fast at my hometown.....

terlalu banyak alasan n halangan.... mama dah tak kuasa... tak pa la... terima jer lah... mama harap sangat thn depan will be my year.... dear mr hb i've done everything n give my all to you... please at least sekali jer pun cukup... mama teringin nk berbuka n beraya di kk.... mama faham tugas n kepayahan hb nk minta cuti... orang kalau dah workaholic nk buat macamanakan hehehe... bagus jgk....

at least biarlah merasa di kg sendiri sebelum mama pergi tak kembali dah hehehe..

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

ramadhan.....

hari ni satu ramadhan.... seronok tak terhingga... betapa mama rindukan ramadhan.... mama harap sangat2 agar tahun ni mama dapat tunai apa yg tak sempat mama buat thn2 sebelum ini... malam td mama tk berkesempatan tarawih di masjid telekom... bapak kena duty... tak pa mam solat kt rumah jer pun ok... harap2 malam ni mama boleh gi terawih kt masjid...

mama harap tahun ni puasa n ibadat mama diterima Allah s.w.t ...

pagi ni mama seronok sangat sebab aidil pun ikut bersahur... walaupun tak seberapa tp aidil ada semangat nk berpuasa... aidil cakap kena puasa sebab cikgu ton suruh hahahaa.... tak pa aidil kecil lg.. pelan2 yer nak... nanti mama nk ajak angah n adik bersahur n berpuasa.

Insya Allah bulan puasa ni kita cuba kerap balik rumah opah yer nak....

mama sebenarnya tengah sakit kepala .... berat sangat... mungkin sebab cuaca kot... wallahu'alam...

so mama nk sambung .......................... :)

Thursday, August 5, 2010

just wondering..................

today i was in school... it is not the end of the lesson... but gonna continued it tomorrow... hmmm it's mean... there r school on saturday.... it's our duty teachers..... so come on and have fun tomorrow.... even though i've a sore throat but think positive... at least i can sing like a rock star.... hmmm( don't know any name)... luckily i'm teaching in special education school... here there r less talk but more to sign language....

about the past i've already forgotten... lets it flows.... life goes on.. right??.. now ramadhan is near... hopefully the whole year is ramadhan... i like the spirit during ramadhan.... this year i'm planning to get closer to Merciful Allah.... Insya Allah.... i've been waiting for 5 years to perform tarawikh with my friends here... hopefully this year will be the year....

so this year it will be my beloved husband turn to choose the theme... hehehe.. :P... lets he picks himself... sometimes.. hmmm no most of the times he will choosed the better one... included wardrobe and clothes.... i'll be stand beside hmmm and hummmm all the time hehehe....

our anniversary also will be coming soon.... all these past 7 years we've been through everything together.... i just can't go on if you r not at my side... oppssss... this story i'll writes on the b.day...

my sons all r growing faster.... mama didn't realized when r u grow... mam missed all the time bathing n playing with u when u r just a little ones... how much i miss that time... i wish the time will stop and u will never grew up so i can play with u all the time... now aidil is a big boy... he doesn't want to get bath with me or his father... "aidil mandi sendiri"..... he also do want to share with his brothers...

angah also now a smart ones... always with his tricky minds.. hehehe... he's the clever ones... but for almost of the times he's the one mama adore... but he is now away from me... he only want to play with his father... maybe because we're have been too closed before the little ones comes... hmmm :(

adik was the cutest ones... he's my favourite ones... he's always be with me... i even can't close my eyes without seeing his face.....he's also grew up now...

now all of my sons r growing.... mama will always prays for u... mama will always love u... mama really missed all of u.... u r my sunshine .... how i wish u were not grow so all of u will stick with me... yes it's sound selfish but u were mine hehehe.... one day all u will find out why mama always scolding u.... it's because i love u so much and i want you to become a person.....mama never hated u.... mama will hated myself if i didn't done my job well before i'm leaving....

my heart is full of beautiful person beside me...my huband (rosli daud), aisil, nazhim and aizhim... there will no space to any person here....it always be 4 of you....

insya allah....

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

finally....

fuhhh seksanya... punyalah sekian lama mama mencari apa password blog ni.. hadui pening kepala mama.... the simple thing can be the hardest thing to do...

first let me tell u the saddest story.... last month was the miserable month for me... i need to be strong.... mama kena fitnah... biasa la mulut manusia... rambut sama hitam hati siapa la yang tahu.... mama kena tuduh macam2 tp tak pa mam kan kebal hehehe... insya allah.... sebab mama tahu... mama tak buat semua benda yang dicakap....

punyalah tak malu dia tu dah la pegawai kerajaan.. lelaki pulak tu... sepatutnya lebih waras dan matang... tp sebaliknya.... tanam tebu di tepi bibir.... macam tu la perumpamaan yg sesuai utk dia..... suka membuat cerita sangat2.... lain yg jadi lain yg dicerita... asthafirullah'alazim...

tp orang ni berjaya mendapat perhatian big momma n big daddy dia.... seronok la kan dapat jatuhkan air muka orang kan.... this person should be put at an island....kalau boleh mcm pulau jerjak...

mama tahu sampai sekarang lelaki tu tak puas hati.... even mama tak buat apa pun.... dh sampai cakap2 yg tk best... it's ok... mama buat tk reti jer.... lantak dia la nk cari pasal dgn siapa pulak.... yg mama tahu... one day i'll be punished for what have he done....

cuma mam harap sgt2 1 hari dia akan sedar bahawa bawa mulut ni tak da noktah yang baik tp akan tinggalkan satu tanda buat dia selama2nya... orang sekeliling akan cop what kind of this man.... sampai bila2 pun....

asthafirullah... mama pun dh melarat2 nih.... ok lah at least mama dpt jugak release apa yg terbuku di dalam hati ni....

kepada mereka ni cepat2 sedar dari mimpi indah kamu.... tak salah meminta maaf... tp menjadi bodoh sombong tu ...hmmm fikir sendiri lah...

wallahu' alam

Monday, May 24, 2010

my way or your way or anyway or no way

dah dekat 6 bulan kita stay kat taiping... sekejap jer masa kan.. tp byk lagi benda kena buat.. mama masih lg gagal nk uruskan masa... until now mama gagal nk daftar masuk thn 1 utk aidil n daftar angah g prasekolah uth thn depan.... mama tk berkesempatan lg ada jer benda kena buat last minute... even utk diri sendiri pun tk sempat... mama rasa tk pernah puas rehat kt sini....

mama starting to get use to my workplace... my colleagues r goods here n i'm happy being here. cuma mama rasa tk seronok nk g bakat la... sbb bila mama dh kena involved terpaksa la masa mama jd tersepit lg... tak sampai hati to say no to this matter... this is your father's future... ikut jer la...

just to express my emotions mama geram dgn kaki menipu ni... i never lie in my life.... even i've trie so many times to lies to your father but .... he's know i'm not a good liar... mama tk pandai bohong pun blum nk bohong pun bapak kamu dh tau.. dia mesti gelak punya lah... bapak kan suka sakat mama benda2 mcm ni... bab nk pekenakan mama serah kt bapak kamu jer la..... u're so lucky to he's your father...

back to my story.... mama tak suker poker face nih... mama jenis percaya lah jgk citer minah laki bini nih... skali dpt tau citer sbnr secara kebetulan trus mama tak mahu dh dekat kt this liar... mama boleh lg chat dgn dia tp after this jangan terkejut la time dia nk bukak citer penipu tu lg trus mama c.a.b.u.t ler....

dear sons... kalau mama tak pernah tipu kamu.. please kamu jangan sesekali tipu mama n bapak... mama percaya kamu dengan sepenuh hati tapi once kamu pecah tembok percaya mama.. confirm after this mama tak akan layan kamu dah.... eq mama tak sekuat bapak kamu... dia masih boleh maafkan lg... mama pun kena mandi bunga kot hehehe...





Thursday, February 4, 2010

a new place a new beginning...

be at the new place.. finally i'm out from KL... my life was frustrating when i was at KL... rasanya tak sanggup lg nak ke sana.. kalau untuk bercuti insya allah kalau untuk posting... mahu mama fikir 100 kali... tapi tak tahukan kalau dah rezeki bapak kat sana lagi ker...

bila sampai di taiping,mama dah tekad nk mulakan hidup n azam baru. mama nk berikan yang terbaik buat anak2. insya allah.. anak mama adalah segala-galanya. sekarang ni aidil dah masuk prasekolah kat SK Taiping dekat dgn sekolah mama. nazhim n aizhim belajar kat taska ibu besar kt taman jana mulia. alhamdulillah. anak2 mama dah mula pandai baca muqaddam... dah pandai baca doa selain doa makan. dah elok sikit perangai... ada lah berdisplin skit. hehehe...

kat sekolah mama.. .sekarang ni dah terlampau byk kerja.. kadang2 terasa tak ada masa sgt nk bermain dgn anak2. tp berbeza sangat dgn life kt KL dulu. jup nk cerita pasal sekolah mama dulu. kalau kt SK taman Kepong mama ajar LD. skrg kt sini mama terkejut gak la bila dapat tahu mengajar kanak2 pekak.. tp jangan salah sangka mereka ni lagi pandai dari yg normal. Bila bersama mereka, mama sedar Allah itu Maha Kaya dan Maha Mengetahui. walaupun mereka ni kurang dari segi pendengaran tp mereka cerdik dari segi akal fikiran. mereka juga mewah dgn kasih sayang dari keluarga dan guru. dengan mereka mama rasa diri mama lg kerdil dan kurang. tapi mengajar english mmg cabaran besar. mereka dah biasa guna bhs isyarat dlm bahasa melayu. sedangkan dlm english mmg ada lain lah sikit. jenuh dok explain kt depa nih... penat dha tangan dok turun naik nk tunjuk kt mereka nih... masa mula2 mengajar memang akward sgt sbb mama tak ada basic dlm sign language. berkat tunjuk ajar dari cikgu2 ni lama2 mama dah boleh buat.. skrg ni mama dah mula bole sikitt2 nyani negaraku guna sign language. mama dah bole praktikkan kt rumah... aidil pun tgh belajar guna sign language sbb aidil dh dpt kawan ramai kat sekolah mama. kadang lucu gak tgk aidil penat nk layan mereka. mula2 aidil takut sgt sampai cakap mama kenapa mereka tak boleh cakap. mama " mereka tak boleh ckp sbb bisu" aidik "tapi mereka ada mulutkan tak bolecakap jugak ker". mula2 aidil tak faham. tapi lama2 aidil dh mula faham. aidil seronok main dgn sheryn, fahmi, dharmaraj. mama pun dah mula seronok mengajar mereka. sbb dgn mereka mama jadi bersemangat semula. mereka ada desire untuk mengetahui semua benda.

ok skrg cier pasal keadaan sekarang. dulu masa kt KL kita tak dapat nk bermain kt luar sangat walaupun selalu keluar tapi mcm dh kesuntukkan masa. kat sini time balik sekolah mama n aidil akan pusing2 kt taman tasik dan jalan2 sampai ke kemunting. kadang aidil selalu pergi pejabat bapak sampai tertido. bapak pun selalu jugak hantar mama, aidil, angah n adik gi sekolah sama2. bila bapak baik petang jer terus kita main badminton kt luar rumah ni, kadang main bola sama2. seronok jugak kan. kalau rasa boring jer kita gi jalan mandi air terjun kt burmese pool.

time malam pulak selalu tido awal sebab kat sini sunyi sikit. dah tak tau nk buat apa time malam so tido jer lah kan.. awal jugak tu... kalau kat KL mesti tido lewatkan. lepas tu kena bangun awal pagi.

cuma satu jer. mama suka dgn kawan2 kt SKTK tu.. sbb mesra sgt. rindu nk gelak2 sakan dgn kak ain,hafizah,kak saadiah,imah, kak nik, kak suzy, fadli,syidah, mama suka usik lalitha, s.ros, leha, kadang suka usik kak linda,c.haz n other tp tak termasuk yg sorang tu yer malas nk tgk pun hehhee... tapi tak bole lupa kawan mama selaku bakal besan mama hehehe sazzy... mesti dia tgh happy main dgn baby boy baru dia...

kat sini mama masih dlm proses kenal diri cikgu sekolah tu lg.. tak berapa nk rapat lg n tak berapa nk mesra lg. mungkin sebab terlalu banyak kerja n kertas kerja kena buat masing2 pulak tu... tp kena control gak sbb bilik guru tu panas belakang bilik guru besar jer.. bahaya.. hehehehe... dear sazzy aku tak da bestfren lg kt sini huhuhuhu...

rindu pulak dgn kawan2 masa kpli dulu... setakat ni tak jumpa lg kawan2 kpli... harap2 nanti dpt jumpa la salah sorang.

oklah ras cukup dulu kot... nanti mama posted lg... mama tgh pening nk siapkan skrip mc utk hari sukan sabtu nih.

Thursday, January 7, 2010

1st day without you all

rasa sedih jer bila tinggal jauh dari bapak n anak2 mama............... tertiba rindu nk bising2 kt anak2 mama....

1st time drive sorang2 ke taiping. bapak cuma temankan sampai separuh jalan jer.... takut jgk... tapi mama kena kuatkan semangat. mama ingatkan dalam hati yang mama pergi mendidik anak2 istimewa.. mereka ni semua anak2 Allah........... mama teringat cakap gpk sk desa tasik.... kalau kita pergi mengajar atau berbuat apa sahaja tapi niat kerana mendidik anak2 istimewa ini.. insya allah Allah akan sentiasa permudahkan semua perkara...... tapi semua tu betul.... mama cuma mencuba buat permohonan tukar sekolah... dengan hanya sekali minta tak sangka mama dapat jugak tukar ke taiping. syukur alhamdulillah.......... syukur sangat2..........

mama pun dah selamat sampai taiping .... and now mama dah pun start mengajar anak2 istimewa ni .... macam biasa mama akan ajar english ler... bila mama tengok mereka mama teringat anak2 murid mama kat sktk... rindu sangat.... walaupun berbeza tapi mereka ni istimewa sgt. .....

hari ni mama cadang nk pergi jalan2 kat area taiping ni nak cari rumah sewa.... n nk cari nursery utk anak2 mama ni... mama nk cari sekolah yg terbaik utk along... kalau bole nk bg angah n adik sekolah sama... mama dah tekad tak nak cari maid.. ngeri mama dgr cerita buruk ttg maid ni haaa... mama sendiri pernah tgk mcmana maid tu marah anak jiran kita....

hmmm rindu sgt dgn anak2 mama ni... bapak baru jer call bgtau dia bwk semua anak2 mama gi taman tasik permaisuri..... best nyer